Are you nurturing your inner child or is he/she starving?

My story isn’t that unusual … Like a lot of my peers, other “privileged” middle-class Canadian millennial females; I have struggled with depression, anxiety, OCD, ADHD, eating disorders, and throughout the years with socially-acceptable addictions to substances like nicotine, cannabis, food and even love addiction. 

I’ve spent most of my life with the consciousness virus of “I’m not good enough, I’m not doing enough and what I’m doing is not good enough”. 

There’s always been this pressure in the back of my chest & mind to do more and achieve more. 

I subscribed to that high-performant perfectionist archetype. And I was really good at it too!

I was caught on this hamster wheel thinking that when I was going to reach the next goal, the next gig, that next achievement "THAT" that was going to make me happy, make me feel whole and complete.

But instead it led me down a dark path of BURNOUT, more anxiety ... more disappointments in multiple jobs and even in my own business.

See, being raised in a family where positive words of affirmation were only present when I performed well in school, my body-mind system was the perfect soil for the ultimate perfectionist pattern ... and for the inner tyrant to be anchored and born in my subconscious mind.

It took deep trauma and losing everything - yep facing my ultimate fear of feeling like a failure - to finally wake up from this toxic collective hypnosis and realize that I'm totally enough. 

Realizing that my value & true worth has nothing to do with the external things that I've previously accumulated, that I was not any of the previous labels that I put into myself .... the title ... the relationship status ... the amount of money in my bank account ... It meant nothing. 

TRUTH is that nothing external defines you …

NONE of those "worldly" accumulations would follow me on my dead bed.

And from that moment on, I chose and decided that nothing that could ever be taken away from me would define me. 

I learned that hard way … but never again would I take that as an illusionary identity.

So I rebuilt myself from the ground up. I started doing the inner work and started loving myself truly and deeply. Loving my inner child for the first time in her/my life just from being a beautiful soul on this planet, embodying beautiful inner qualities and good inner virtues. Anchoring new supportive, caring and loving positive beliefs to myself and my inner child. Respecting and resourcing my delicate nervous system in a loving way.

Slowly slowly, I revived. 

After years of inner neglect, because quite frankly I was never taught how to do it in the first place, finally the light went on and the magic started operating.

I learned to nurture myself from the core. 

My body, my heart, my soul, my consciousness, my inner child was so thirsty to hear "I love you" and that "you are lovable just the way you are". 

I learned to embody the beliefs that “you are perfect whole and complete”, “𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘰𝘶𝘵”, “𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶. 𝘐 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦”,”𝘐 𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘨𝘯𝘪𝘻𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘪𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘳 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘺”, “𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘮𝘢𝘻𝘪𝘯𝘨 … 𝘐’𝘮 𝘴𝘰 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘥 𝘰𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶”.

Literally this inner work changed my life and probably saved my life. Working on reparenting my inner child, my inner self and giving myself the words of affirmation I never heard, healed me to the core.

By using simple hacks for subconscious reprogramming and connecting + nurturing to my inner child I was able to not only reverse my chronic illnesses but to also boost my mental wellbeing to the next level. I was finally able to shed those layers of past traumas and say goodbye to that paralyzing & destructive inner critic.

I finally recognized that I was good enough

I learned to truly recognize myself, respect myself, my boundaries and my needs. I've learned to say NO to unhealthy patterns, substances and relationships. And the suffering went away ...

I learned to recognize self-destructive patterns and make wise CHOICES instead. 

As I loved myself, one by one, I let go of self-sabotaging habits and beliefs. I learned to follow the path of “What would love do?” in my life.

I embraced my perfect imperfections and divine flow.

The bonus in all this? my outer reality now reflects my new inner luscious garden. I now attract more love, abundance and success into my life with more ease and flow.

Of course, living in a society still driven by consumerism, artificial beauty & the productivity “doing” programming, I still have to remind myself everyday of my path of self-love.

As this is a RADICAL & REBELLIOUS path, this path of LOVE, the path of DESERVING because of just BEING.

I choose LOVE!

I know the TRUTH of who I am, I consciously choose everyday my own ESSENCE and my UNIQUE divine SELF-EXPRESSION.

One of my fav quotes comes from Dr. Maxwell Maltz from his famous book Psycho Cybernetics: “𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘪𝘯𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘳, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘶𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘳, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘺 𝘠𝘖𝘜. 𝘠𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘷𝘢𝘭𝘶𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘴 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴.”

Beyond everything, I now celebrate my difference as I know this is the divine self-expression GOD has chosen to explore this human experience for the duration of the Angie avatar on this planet. 

Like I tell my clients AWARENESS IS A SUPERPOWER. And knowing TRUTH is one too!

It allows us to navigate the realm of “reality” on this planet with more ease and grace. 

Today, I’m grateful for my past breakdowns as they’ve forced me to truly connect with myself, develop my huge tool box and hacks on “how to hack the inner matrix”, do the inner work and how to GROW & CULTIVATE my inner love garden.

If you are ready to invest in your Inner Freedom and desire to elevate your life, frequency and wellbeing to the next level, DM me. I’ve got 3 spots for 1:1 coaching that just opened up for my 90 days private “Embodied Freedom” program. Of course only if you are ready to take action, do the inner work, learn the best inner matrix tools & hacks in the bizzness on how to become #unfuckablewith in your inner LOVE medicine and mindset. 

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Ready to align body & mind with your unique divine self-expression?

CHOOSE love! The rest is illusionary 😉